October Ended - Complains

Finally, a break after a hectic week in school - Week 3 was a suffer. I had to rush out my report, a supposedly easy report that seemingly became harder as the days went by. I had only a vague idea of wats the thing i got to write a report on is about, i couldnt find anything constructive in the webs and it became inevitable that i would have to burn midlight oil to finish the report due to all the comps breaking down one by one after the bdays - 1 comp left! Nevertheless, i was fortunate enough to find a detailed pdf file the day before submission.

Wednesday was terrible too, the lack of sleep drained my mind and i 4got to bring the clubrm key along with me to school, so after i assisted han with his studies as promised, i made a trip back home, take the keys and rushed back for the inventor training - it's weird, i was feeling quite finely prior to the bus trip back to school, but as i got up the bus and sat on the seat, all my energy just seemed to have dissipated, dozing off with a spineless head.

During the inventor training, it was just pure foul luck that he gave us some harder designs to work on, it wasnt actually that hard, but the commands used are different, and i wasnt in the right mood to actually derive any fun from it as i would have liked.

Also, guitar practices are getting boring without new pieces to work on, it's like playing repetitively like a record, of coz, not perfect, and it makes it even more boring that the distorted sound in some parts we play kept on repeating itself as well. I know only practice will make the pieces we play better, but new pieces for us to work on are certainly what brings fun into the ensemble, and we are lacking it with the concert coming up, time to finalise everything!

Back at home on that ill-fated day, i broke a bowl whilst scooping some icecream! And it just sums up my day till i finally finish the report late into the next morning.

An sms during that day spoiled my day as well

I fully agree that friends should help each other, else what are friends for? certainly not to make use of each other as many would suggest as we grow into the society, my opinion that is, there'll still be true friends around.

But what i don like is the irresponsibility portrayed by YST, AGAIN. She asked me to do her project for her. And when i told her i havent do mine as well, she just said "i'll be reaching home at 1am loh, 4get it." The "4get it", it was very disturbing to me! it sounded as though i owed her, it sounded as though i am a villian by not helping her, it sounded as though i'm a selfish idiot who care less about friends.

1stly, that's the day just before submission, i havent written anything for my report, have had tonnes of difficulties finding a web to provide info for me to write on, got to wait till my bro sleep to use the comp, which probably is arnd 12am++?

2ndly, she jollyful went to work, earning her pay while knowing she got a report to finish, i warned her before about it, but the only thing she says is, kenneth, can help me do?

Everyone has their own problems, but to know that u have a work to complete and yet do nothing about it except trying to attain a saint's help is just pure irresponsiblility.

And it just sickening me to be somehow branded the villian instead of her own selfish irresponsible acts. I wouldnt mind helping friends at all to edit their work or improvise on it, but i mind helping people to do everything without them showing any concern or care for their own work! And i am really sickened to actually think and witness such behaviour.

To make matter worse, her attitude when asking for a webpage that night showed that she blames me for not helping her. What did i owe her? i wouldnt even wanted to help edit her work at all actually, with such impression of her self centered behaviour, but it was horribly copy and paste from web, yea, cant stand it again, it's like she expected, or expects me to edit it for her. If she really cared for her work by asking for help, why don show that little hints of it. I would be more convinced to fulfilling to help then.

That's the past and i wrote here to express my feelings and opinions then, not to complain about it anymore.

Another thing is that i felt as though i am taken for granted by some people, and i dislike it. What had i done wrong to deserve that lack of respect? i don remember offending u, and so it was hard to swallow that instance. I was merely asking a question, and i got a fired up interruption, wat? expecting a taunting remark or smt by most people that would rattle them happily at u? if that's so, u brought them upon urself, and u can blame no one. Or did i ask sinful question? i don think so, it's a normal reaction for u to react that way isnt it? Thats so childishly insensitive - Pissed certainly. Be it petty, i wouldnt bother without an apology. I have done nothing wrong.

It's reaching my limit already, if i am taken for granted, it means the lack of respect, sensitivity and care about me isnt? so why would i bother being nice to people who treat me like nuts. Freak.

Irritating week,
pardon my complains if it irritates u.