Life Is An Active Roller Coaster, Going Up And Down... Up And Down...

Ever sat on a roller coaster? it's slow moving up and plunges down in an instant, yes, that's life to me, but it never excites you when it plunges down. Emotional i am, but when it gets too much, i will readily give it up, i did it before, and i am ready to do it again.

I shall continue where i left off in my blog. Since there was a sudden halt in what i really feel like saying.

I have been working on mondays, tuesdays, thurdays and fridays, so there isn't much to talk about those days just yet.

Last week, wednesday, 12th, i had guitar lesson, continued with aura lee, polishing up the piece playing as guitar one, i am kind of looking forward to hear the full ensemble piece, and more importantly, i am part of it. I love music, especially sentimental ones, but what i wish for most is to produce that music, one day, by myself, that's my motive and interest in music. After guitar, we went for pool at grassroot club. Played till 10+ before going home and prepare for the next day at work.

Friday, 14th, it will be one of my most memorable day, coz it's my 17th birthday, but what made it memorable was that my friends celebrated with me, many great thanks for that. I had only wanted a dinner to catch up on all of you, but navin got a cake for me on behalf of my friends, thank you. Anyway, we ate Prata at serangoon gardens before going ice cube for some desserts, we had our cake there, and they sang a song for me... so nice of them. My mood has been down since sunday, i had wanted to write one article on this day alone, to try and express the massive appreciation i have for u guys, but i can't do it now. thanks alot.

That night, 5 of us went to Mark house to have a night of lan ing, i went there late into 11 and we started playing at 1am, it was great to have 5 playing in the same room, we dota and played other custom games, had macs for breakfast at 5+, delievery, and got on playing till some went to sleep. We play dbz to let Lenny experience it and i knocked off when we fighting the big fat vegeta in gorilla form.

So that night lasted till saturday where we slept, played, slept, played, and i eventually went home at 9+, watched soccer at 10 and continued to play with them in net.

Sunday, you know, i was quite over the moon becoz i really appreciated what friends did for me during my bday. I value friendship alot, and i treat them sincerely with my heart, but i am somewhat too straightforward at times, and sometimes, i wish i am more accepted by friends which my straightforwardness would have hurt it. But that day was great, at least, it make me felt accepted, which is what i am hoping for, i want a close friendship among friends, a bondage never to be broken or crack even while a massive hurricanic events happen. That's what i worked on, lifelong friends.

And yes, two days after one of my memorable day, my roller plunged down, in a way, i had enough. I don't expect life to be always on the hills, high up with the whole capacity filled with fun, enjoyment, but what that brought to me were needless childish conflicts, and it will disturbed me. This is also what i wanted to put right up in my blog, straightforward, every word, without any concern, i got agitated in my chat with kiat and that fiery made me give up everything, that's why i wanted to clear up everything and get secluded. Sorry to kiat for venting.

The thing started when we played 5v5 dota, wk, mark, je, kel and me in 1 team while the other is 4 strangers with moo playing there. The game was messy and moo killed wk quite alot of times. And when kel said, moo killed quite alot, i said "all wk :/", well, what i wanted to do was to do some balancing. Moo used BH, wk used ursa, Wk was alone in 1 lane. and it was easy to do some backstabbing, and all i wanted to say was that moo just kill one day, and planning to tell kel not to worry, for he isn't dominating yet even though he has about 6kills which i think mean nothing just yet. And Wk popped up wif "don kpkb", well, i got agitated and said it was a fact that his kills were all wk, and never explained. The game continued, and wk was suiciding, doing things to disrupt the game, Mark asked for the reason at some point and i merely said, "i think wk is pissed with me" and wanted to explain that he misunderstood. And Mark Instantly came with "don say liao la", "its just a game". This made me felt victimised and i hated it becoz thats what i always say to him when he scold them for dying and doing sorts. I am the one that really treat game below friends, and childish people wanted revenge and seek opportunity to hit back. I said it when it was evident, and i dispise things said just for revenge sake.
I do say where went wrong in games, but i don scold friends for playing badly, becoz i noe not all people are good in games. And Come On, game and friends, which is more important. Ok, i was pissed for the whole duration of the game. And we eventually won it. Then, i went back to IRC, i wanted to sort things out, becoz i believe explainations are important, among friends. i merely admitted i was pissed off in the game and wanted to say the reasons and sort it out. And well, Mark said fuker and quit. woo, so much for 11 years being together. I admire that. Childish.

This Is Crappy

i had wanted to type a wholesale of things i wanted to say after the barrier was lifted, but it's back in place now, this sux, i knew what i wanted to type and everything was in place. I guess i will have to let it go, and renew my thoughts on my blog. But nothing can be tuned back to normal, especially it just happened just after my most fruitful birthday. ZzZ. I hate to be a victim of misunderstandings, it's too unfair.

Quick Update

yea, i started work last thursday, 6th. In Taka, anyone wanna meet me during my lunch break? :/

Did nothing in particular except working. Simple stuff, but there're plenty of steps, not easy to be an accountant i guess, i am just a stand in, lucky :D glad i didnt like POA.

Ok, nth much to talk about, i will be working on mon, tues, thurs, fri, any outing on those nights or the rest of the days, tell me ah.

Week Long Happenings ++

It had been a week since i finished my exams, and a carefree life is always full of fun, indeed, it was fun, but it's not perfect yet, but i know it will get better when all my closest friends (EoD) finishes their exams.

Last Monday, 26th, Mark, Daniel and i went back go sgss to talk about nyp, it was quite fun, although Mr Paul Tan(PT) posed some questions that are difficult to answer... example - how you find the girls in nyp? Well, we did fine and the whole programme went well. During the programme, Mr Stanley Tan(ST)and Ms Jackie Cheng(JC) were around, well, i admire the way ST taught us a-maths, at least, he made it understandable, especially when my maths foundation collasped under Raymond Ng. ST is also the teacher that i think, interact wif my class the most. He's definitely a teacher i feel pleasant with. While JC never taught me, she's quite a helpful teacher, mixing strictness with jokes. Of course, both noticed mark's hair... those who saw should get what i mean :/, Mark sported an outstanding hairdo. After the whole affair, we walked arnd the school, gaining back some old memories, it's 4 years there, quite a long time although we only spent 1 year in the new building. Nevertheless, it's great to see how different the school look, after the construction work had been done. I still remember i let off a tear during my pri 6 guaduation day when i was suppose to get a prize as 2nd in class. It came unknownly, for 6 years, you are in the same place, and suddenly, u are going to leave it and proceed to the next phase of your life. Maybe i am too emotional, lol. But the memories just flashes pass and the people you get to interact with are always in your heart. We went back after that, and i fell asleep soon after, having only afew hours of rest.

Tuesday Night, 27th, Je, Wk, and me tonned at mark hse. For? Wc3-FT marathon. Haha, we started off playing dota, trying out funny combos and got on playing other custom games. Namely, Sheep Tag, Kitty Run, Warchasers, Helms Deep, Troy. between the games, we ordered macs for a quick breakfast arnd 5+, big breakfast, quite long never eat already. Reasons? i rarely eat fastfood unless wif friends and? it's breakfast! while i am a well known pig, when there's a need for my sweet dreams. It was fun, playing with them whole night, but Mark and JE got tired and we stopped, ending up wif me and wk playing kitty run and eventually parted with me needing to go NDC for my dental appointment. Went back after the appointment and had a sleep, before waking up to go NYP for the lecturer's Sports For Life. or Of Life? Not sure. Some familiar faces there, but mostly strangers, we helped out PT as he is the DJ for the event. They have gotten a better system and helping out was easy, lowering and uping the volume only, and presenting some prizes. It ended at 6, and we went for some food, i didnt eat since that night we tonned, last night that is. Chicken Rice, and we went guitar, with Aaron joining us. Ah Ha! our enrichment conductor came back! he has a more friendly presence, and i felt fortunate with him as our new conductor. Learning guitar is full of fun, reading the notes and playing it out, how i wish i could master it soon, and play it as freely as i can. I still prefer piano though, hoping someone can one day spend time to teach me, lol. During guitar, i found that 1 of my friend is becoming a different person, at least not the person i knew before we went different classes in upper sec, maybe i interpreted wrongly though. Anyway, we went pool after guitar, with mark getting the boot for wearing slippers, i accompanied Aaron though, knowing he likes pool and i never go out with him as often as those regulars in EoD, Aaron just suddenly stopped coming EoD, his reason: scared of virus. Yea, Pool was great fun, but not as fun as it was in my heart positioning. Aaron stayed with me till my bus came and we got home respectively, ending the day out.

Friday, 30th, it was JE bday, and i realized that i didnt know wats the date of his bday. wat a friend am i, haha, but its becoz he never said :/ and i wasn't really always going out with him during our sec 4 days. He's always going home, not even participating in soccer games which my class usually have. Although, i don have his bday in mind, i still gave my blessing to him upon knowing it :/ and i think that shud be enuff for now, lol... till the next time, next year that is. haha, but i rarely do anything for people's bday now... i always wanted to do something personally for them, a pic, a spam, or anything that i do it myself, bday is once a year, and its always a good time to show care. After sec3 or sec4, i rarely does that already, perhaps due to the many problems i have then, but i think i got over it already. Life is boring, but i shud do something about it to derive the fun i desire right? Ok, Happy Bday again JE.

Soccer Weekend, and i stayed at home, lol. Nothing much to talk about.

Yesterday, 3rd oct, my bioclock changed, and i now wakes up around noon. I was supposed to start work on tues, but it was postponed to thurs instead, thus the time for blog :). My poly friends had a bball gathering which i didnt go, sorry to them here, maybe i will go the next time around. That night, JE, WK, Len, Mark and i had dinner together, then proceed on to pool and lan, typical, as Singapore doesn't have much to do, the only few things i want to do now is sports like soccer which i misses so much, badminton which i find it fun, and tennis sorts which many of my friends participate in. Other things? What do Singapore have for us to do? Not much i guess...

Some other issues

You may know the girl i mentioned, but i am not trying to avoid or fend you off, i didnt reply ur msn becoz i was in a game, which i don alt tab becoz there's no free time except after dying inside. And i usually see how the game goes and learn when i die. Thus, i wont know who msged me till the game ends, i am sorry for it too, esp when u went offline and i didnt have the chance to reply when i came out. I don't like having misunderstandings, but u seem to not believe by saying fine, its the truth, i am not lying. But its still my fault though, sorry. As for the girl you know, please don think too much, she's like became my close friend and suddenly we never talked, thats why i felt weird, nothing much in it though, it just weird to have a sudden change. It has been 4 months, you know what i mean, friends to me are not just come and go, its lifelong friends, and a sudden breakdown makes me wonder. Watever i think, i know the other party have another thinking, but friends are still friends. Ok, i am kinda typing a riddle out, but i don want to reveal what i think though, becoz it may not be the actual fact.

Ok i noe one friend is getting worked up wif me, well, there're bound to be conflicts when we have different thinkings and always in touch wif one another. I am still my straightforward guy, but i will try to lessen it. But please think together wif me what u did, felt and said too.

Ok, End of this article. Good luck to friends wif promos, lets have a nice time together after promos k? Time to Sleep